swimming against the tide

i thought that my life was going on the wrong track. all of my friends are running off and getting married and starting their lives and we are still in high school. i felt as if i was no where close to that which is the truth but i was beating myself up about it. i know that it is really stupid, but sometimes my faith gets weak and i loose all hope in anything and i know i shouldnt but when i get surrounded by the color blue when i am the only red dot, i start to question my actions. i have once again put this matter in gods hands and he will do with it as it should be done. so there will be no wedding bells for me, i will have those lonely and depressing days but i will continue to wear a smile because i know that one day i will meet my one and only that god has prepared for me. the question is when?