all worries are gone when you give them to God

well for those of you who do not know, i have been extremely stressed out lately, trying to choose which college to go to. well i am officially going to missouri southern in joplin, my grandmother needs someone to take care of her and being one of her favorite people she asked me to. again as many of you know the recent death of my grandfather has been hard on the entire family, especially my grandma. my grandma has received close to a thousand dollars from family since the funeral because several knew that she couldnt keep up flowers. my grandmother asked my uncle rick to deposit the money into her account and trusted that he would do so. she checked her balance today and the money had never been deposited. there have been other incidents that have added onto this stress and we are all finding it very hard to believe. we love rick and we have been praying that he will receive comfort as we all go through this hard time. i am not sure why is acting out and i really hope that he eventually sees what he is doing. my grandpa prayed for him often, that he would receive christ as his savior and life joyfully as the rest of us have. this is just a hard time for all of us and being two hours a way makes me feel helpess. i am giving this to God now, he knows what to do and i must trust him.

a new life

i have been in this angry state of mind for over a month now and i didn't want to be mad at god for taking away my grandpa, but i was. i am still a little bit confused and unsure of what my future will hold. during church yesterday, i was singing in the choir for the first time in a long time and i couldnt stop smiling. i couldnt figure out why. i ended up riding by myself home after church and i had the radio turned to the christian radio station. i started singing like i always do, but with each word that i sang i actually meant them. i was praising god and i was so glad that he loved me. after a few songs and tears later, i made my way home and in the living room, i hit my knees and i just thanked god for everything that he has blessed me with. i think that sometimes, so many bad things get in our way of seeing god but when he is in clear sight, that is when he has the most grace.

Thou, O king, art a king of kings: for the God of heaven hath given thee a kingdom, power, and strength, and glory. Daniel 2:37

just praise god for all he does, not matter good or bad

more superbowl

ben sporting my boots! how manly


me and britty not watching the superbowl
miss penny!
my picture from children's church 

superbowl sunday

jake jacobs and i on superbowl sunday, he is my favorite person. he is so cute!!! we were playing on ben and betsy's computer and i took a lot of pictures. yay, go colts and bears, i don't watch football much so this was a big event for me. hope everyone is doing great and i am constantly praying for you guys!